Daring To Dream

Urrrgh. Thanks to my gum aches, I’ve been stuck to my bed for the majority of break. It’s now Friday, and I have so much stuff to get done. I had to turn down a work-offer from Angela because I wanted to have as time as I could (though, I also turned it down because my gums still ache; they’re much better now, at least).

I’ve also been gimping out on voice acting because of the pains located in mouth…. Ugh. Rana, I will get you done whether you want me to or not. Once the swelling goes down and I can pronounce things properly again.

Other stuff that will be done today include good hygiene, school work, and assorted errands.

In the form of slight starvation XD. I’ve had a gum ache for the past four days or so. And, well, the last thing on your mind, when your mouth is making your its bitch, is eating, amirite.

The aches have gotten so bad, that I wake up in the middle of the night from the OW PAIN OW OW and won’t be able to go back to sleep for HOOUUURRSSS….

I…have not gone to the dentist. Nor do I intend to for a long time. So I am definitely gonna be losing some teeth for I am a fool ;;;.

On the bright side, I am very uninterested in eating. And this actually worked out pretty nice since yesterday was Thanksgiving. I couldn’t even finish my first serving! I also checked the scale. And…-deep inhale-…I’ve lost weight. A good seven fucking pounds or more.

I used to be around 150, bud when I spotted the scale it was like, “…Hmm” and I went over to check.

142. Oh, gosh. I’m happy. I’m thankful. Thank you, job. Thank you, gum ache.

Happy Turkeygiving.

So thanks to my new job, I am trimming down a bit. The thing is, though, the weight distribution in my body has gotten…a bit…uh…weird.

Like, my calves are getting slimmer, and my pot-belly is steadily shrinking, but I think all the fat is just traveling north o_O;;;. My neck is thicker now, my face rounder, and I officially have a double-chin. WTF. Has to be the weirdest area I’ve ever noticeably gained weight in. (AFTER LOSING WEIGHT IN OTHER AREAS AT THE SAME TIME!)

Isn’t your face one of the first places you start losing weight from? I’m uberly confused.

But I’m hoping this problem’ll just fix itself. Maybe once my body’s done ridding of the the excess pounds below the clavicle, it’ll start eating at the fat above.

If not….

Does anyone know any face/neck exercises? XD

Just been thinking about it and…being a Movie Extra really isn’t a priority as much as it used to. I guess that’s mostly because I didn’t have much drive behind it in the first place. …Like…ignoring the list of books on acting I was gonna buy.

Maybe I’ll be interested in it again another day. But not right now, not anymore.

On the plus side, this frees up some time (what time?) to strive towards my other dreams (what time???). All different types of movie extras are needed, any age and any body type, but a lot of my other dreams are ones that I should be able to fulfill easier because I’m young still; they’re dreams I need to start off with young so I can work up to them as I grow and that’ll take time.

On another plus side, because I’m getting into voice acting, some of the same stuff still applies when acting as a movie extra (…except kinda not, but still kinda maybe).

One month left. Are my recordings done? Oh, no. Is my Rana voice perfected? Not at all. Oh, boy. Do I have a back-up plan? More or less. More like just a plan-plan. But it’s better than nothing.

I know my voice is barely near to where it should be, so I decided I’d just do it.

I’ll just pull through with it and do the most Rana-ish voice I’ll have. Except, I’ll get my recordings done early. (…At least, as early as I can manage with my time now cut in half; due date is December 23rd. …OMG THASREALSOON.) I’ll get it done as perfect as I can as soon as I possibly can.

And once I get my lines done early and turn them over to Yi, I’ll explain to him the issue (the fact that my voice is too deep for Rana and since I’m inexperienced, my range is none too broad), and let him judge whether to use my recordings or go ahead to hire another actress.

That way, I’ll at least know I tried.

o____O;;;

RECORDINGS. GO.

I need to talk to a school counselor or something because Assist.org is not assisting me at all! I WANT TO MAJOR IN JAPANESE, DARLING, NOT NURSING OR CHILD DEVELOPMENT.

The top schools I want to transfer into are Fullerton State and/or Long Beach State. And although the transfer agreement to Long Beach is a lot more clear, I really should check in with a school official. Sometime soon.

‘Till I work up the courage, though, I’m just gonna make sure I have all my General Ed taken care of.

But all ARC seems to have is Elementary Japanese. And…I’m seriously not arrogant when I say I’m a bit more advanced than that. I took Japanese all my four years in high school. I think I qualify for Intermediate. SO WHERE ARE ALL THE INTERMEDIATE CLASSES, EH?

Urgh, whatev…. So long as they show up for next Fall term’s schedule. If not, I can always take the latter Elementary Japanese course as a refresher before I transfer, and dabble in Russian for a bit.

Plus, I still have all my notes and worksheets from high school. I’ll just sharpen myself with those, too.

Art class is definitely opening me up to different art ‘tools’ or however the hell an artist would refer to them. Right now, we’re doing charkole. Or black pastel. Or something. Whatever it is, I SUCK AT IT!

I think I just about drew the suckiest thing EVER on Tuesday night.

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So, everyone around me and their uncles are losing weight. MEANWHILE, I AM GAINING. DAMMITALL. Luckily, my new job allows me to rollerblade and actually requires much physical movement.

I deliver fliers.

Y’know…those people who stick advertisements in your door, so the next time you go out, those advertisements fall all at your feet and you’re like “WTF DO NOT WANT D:”. Yeah, hate me. I already love my job. >D

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Well, actually, things seem to be going pretty smoothly in terms of the whole The Meek gig. I’m getting much better with Rana’s voice. The only problem is the the ECHO..cho…o….

My unportable computer sits right where the hallway opens up to the front of the house and downstairs. So unless I record quietly, there’s always an echo in my recordings. But this becomes a problem when I have a particularly passionate line. (And Rana’s full of fire, so…yeah, it’s a constant problem. XD)

I think when the time comes that I record the final versions, I’ll just stretch the mic chord to the master bedroom and record there with a thick blanket draped over the mic ‘n’ me. But right now, I’m just working out perfecting Rana’s voice and my acting.

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One of the fruits of today’s labor:

XD

Well, at least Rana’s voice is getting acceptable now.

Still livin’ the dream. Damn close enough to it, at least XD. Right after Yi sent me the background info, my schedule got unbelievably hectic. Great big art project due, math homework in gratuitous amounts, a 1500-word essay, a job interview, and, of course, the big brain scan.

While I’m very tempted to tell Yi to give another actress a shot, I also know that now I have much better control over my time, and I can do this.

The only problem is that Rana’s voice.

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